1984 :sigh:

I will preface this post with it being my longest post to date I believe. Its literally taken me  weeks to write this post; editing, trashing it all together, etc.

I try to stay away from politics on this blog but with all this nonsense going on, I had to chime in. Only those very close to me know my passion for history and politics.

Anywho…

Enjoy and please chime in with your thoughts.

With doublethink, discernment, and of course love.

Aaisha

In this world where cognitive dissonance seems to reign supreme, if there is one term that I wish more people could grow to overstand and subsequently incorporate into their ethos and daily dialogue, particularly regarding matters germane to the forward progress of this nation and by extension the world, it would be the term DOUBLETHINK.

Doublethink is a term coined by George Orwell from his book 1984 (which seems to finally be coming to fruition in 2017).

Doublethink is the opposite of cognitive dissonance. Cognitive dissonance is defined as a psychological conflict resulting from incongruent beliefs and attitudes held simultaneously. In short it’s an inability to accept reality because it makes one feel uncomfortable or goes against the grain of ones ego that’s tethered to and built upon a fallacies.

Doublethink is defined as the acceptance and mental capacity to accept contrary facts and opinions simultaneously. In other words it’s the ability to accept as fact certain phenomena while at the same time knowing when and where to deviate from said truth. Like holding the belief that you should follow your own dreams and entrepreneurial pursuits while still knowing that you need that job in order to pay rent until those dreams of being your own boss can be actualized.

A contemporaneous example of cognitive dissonance would be the moralizing Donald Trump supporters, many of which hail from the religious right. To a person and in the abstract all of the abhorrent behaviors displayed by their president if displayed by a Democrat or even their own children would be met with scorn and rebuke. But because his politics and racially charged rhetoric stimulates their id all of his moral failings are glossed over, ignored and even defended by these self proclaimed pillars of morality.
The right wing however does not have a monopoly on cognitive dissonance because such heedless thinking exists among many liberals , self professed progressives and black activists alike.

Using Barack Obama as an example there are many progressives particularly in the African-American community that ignored, accepted and even championed some of his worst moves as president just because it was him doing it. Viewing the Obama years through the prism of doublethink two things are true. He’s both the best president in many of our lifetimes as well as one of the greatest pacifiers of the anti-war movement in our lifetime. Most of black America that were opposed to the wars started by George Bush begin to accept Obama’s expansion of them as necessary to their safety and security as opposed to seeing it as evidence to the fact that the military industrial complex and the war profiteering corporations controlled both the democratic and republican parties. For many black activists that’s all they saw in the 44th president ignoring the fact that as the elected leader of an empire his very job was to continue the imperialistic endeavors started by his predecessors. Moreover many of them propagated the mythical half truth that he did more for gays and immigrants than he did for blacks. Through the lens of doublethink first and foremost you’re not going to compare the 400 year oppressive relationship between the United States and Black people with the much more simplistic and targeted discrimination of gays and immigrants which for the most part were remedied by a few executive branch pen strokes. Don’t Ask Don’t Tell and the

Defense of Marriage Act and the enactment of DACA were all laws that represented low hanging fruit. They were simple measures to mitigate the needless suffering of targeted groups. The black activists that make the binary and dichotomous argument of what he did for those disaffected groups versus what he could not and did not do to relieve black people from the long standing issue of white supremacy oppressing black America is another bemusing case of cognitive dissonance. At worst Barack Obama was not unapologetically black as many of the great black leaders of our storied past were and who often times he was unfairly (to them and him) compared to.  Even worse was the cognitive dissonance among mainstream Democratic black voters. It was so thick in 2016 that many of the same black people who saw the evident racism and incompetence in his 2007 primary opponent (Hillary Clinton) not even ten years later were parroting the mantra that she was the most qualified person to ever run for president despite all of the evidence to the contrary and despite having the option of a more progressive, honest and humane option in Bernie Sanders.

Doublethink allows for nuance and holistic thinking. Nuanced holistic thinking is the only tool to successfully navigate the steady waves of fake and misleading news that are constantly bombarding our television screens and social media timelines. Even before Vladimir Putin got hip to how easily the American ethos could be swayed and influenced fake news was a norm in America. Fox News was created in 1996 and from 1996 up until today they have been infecting the airwaves with steady false narratives. The only way to abate the powers of false information is to train the hearts and minds of America to be more analytical. Doublethink is the only way to achieve that goal. Do yourself and your fellow citizens of this trying to be great nation a favor and get more familiar with the term and put it to daily practice.

-A

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Flashlight…Gaslight…

As I muddle through the dramatic encounter I had with the “sociopath”, I am reminded of a few things. It had me thinking of of not only familial and romantic relationships; but even more so, race relations and how we in today’s society the victim is made to believe that he/she of such said event is “crazy” themselves and it’s absurd to even implicate the offender with any sort or role in an egregious act. But I’ll touch on race at a different time…

Gaslighting is a manipulative tactic that can be described in different variations of three words: “That didn’t happen,” “You imagined it,” and “Are you crazy?” Gaslighting is perhaps one of the most insidious manipulative tactics out there because it works to distort and erode your sense of reality; it eats away at your ability to trust yourself and inevitably disables you from feeling justified in calling out abuse and mistreatment.

When a narcissist, sociopath or psychopath gaslights you, you may be prone to gaslighting yourself as a way to reconcile the cognitive dissonance that might arise. Two conflicting beliefs battle it out: is this person right or can I trust what I experienced? A manipulative person will convince you that the former is an inevitable truth while the latter is a sign of dysfunction on your end.

In order to resist gaslighting, it’s important to ground yourself in your own reality – sometimes writing things down as they happened, telling a friend or reiterating your experience to a support network can help to counteract the gaslighting effect. The power of having a validating community is that it can redirect you from the distorted reality of a malignant person and back to your own inner guidance.

So as I move happily, yet cautiously through my life I take heed to this and remember my footing on this topic.

With love, honesty and a thankfully quiet existence.

– A

You can co-exist with people you do not vibe with…

Recently viewed a video from my favorite YouTube channel and it focused on resonance and connections.

Boy did I learn a lot.

Letting go of people (including family) that I don’t connect with.

Searching for the natural flow of life.

We have been indoctrinated to make things work, when simply the shit doesn’t work.

::SIGH::

Stop the madness! I’m getting tired of being sick and tired.  I don’t want to be a loner but I refuse to associate with individuals if the resonance isn’t there.

With love, peace and good vibes ❤

-A

A Mothers Love…

My mother comes to me often, at least a few times a month since her passing on New Years Day.  +She’s about my current age (34ish) healthy, bright and vibrant.  My mother is at peace especially since she suffered a lot in her earthly vessel.  I miss her beyond measure, but as her eldest, she always said no matter what she would always be with me.  My mother died with me only being there and she was so afraid to go, she didn’t want to leave us behind, but with her latest visit she told me that “truly time is an illusion” and that she’s quite surprised that the afterlife that we are indoctrinated with is not what we think.  She came to me and I literally thought she was actually with me, she had on her signature scent and she sat on my bed and just talked and talked, she mentioned that I was one of the few that would listen to her.  It felt like hours and she repeated to me the very thing she told me the day we buried her and that was “she will continue to show me who my real friends are.”  I asked her why is that her primary focus and she said because you’ve always been too trusting.  I couldn’t protect you in the flesh but it’s imperative that you listen to me now.   She said goodbye and waved and disappeared.

This sounds far fetched, but as a small child these kind of things occurred so often my mother and father couldn’t deny it.  Sometimes I don’t believe it myself.

 

With immense love and light and reverence to the process.

-A

 

and…

What attracted me to J was his poise, attractiveness, polish, confidence, and effectiveness in shaping his life in ways that satisfied him…

I realized that there was very little if any reality behind the façade. As poised as he could be, his preoccupation with image often led him to do stupid things, and his “graceful recovery” was just a failure to properly handle the bad feelings that occurred in the wake of his errors. His “confidence” oscillated between arrogance and self-loathing with nothing healthy in between. And in the end, for all his influence and persuasion techniques, he had no more power to force the world into shapes that gratified him than I did with my more conventional efforts, because it’s just not possible to have that much control over the world. If anything, he was more unhappy because of this as he tended to feel very angry and cheated by every little discomfort, which his belief system told him he should be able to arrange to avoid having to tolerate.

Another thing I noticed was that he seemed to be very proud of me, but over time it unfolded that he saw her as a commodity and devalued me and eventually became physically violent  when I was not as successful or glamorous as he would have liked. He clearly had been counting on me to provide him with a particular lifestyle which he felt cheated out of when faced with the reality of my daily grind. He also seemed to be very reliant on women to provide him with an intellectual and emotional life since his own mentality was quite impoverished. As soon as a quantifiably more successful, popular, and glamorous woman hove into view he started imitating her and grooming her to be his bit on the side while relying on the first girlfriend to support him in the material style (house, car) to which he was accustomed.

As you can imagine, it was hard for me to have any respect, let alone attraction, for him once all this became apparent. Not only that, but seeing him obviously aping the interests and mannerisms of his latest targets, and seeing him change completely to put on a show for them, was quite an eye-opener for me. It showed me that not only did he lack the qualities I’d admired in him in the first place, but that he appeared to have these qualities because he was imitating me. It was literally the case that the thing I hoped to find outside myself had been within myself all along and he had been the one who was looking to me to provide him with those things. It’s a good thing I did get  involved with him because he was an insatiable vortex of need, really very debased underneath his respectable exterior, and I now know what to avoid.

As to finding those qualities in another relationship (other than with myself as described above), give it time. I highly doubt that I’m the most fabulously poised person on the planet, and if I am, that’s quite frightening… If the qualities I sought exist in me, logically they must exist in another person too.

We all crave, and we’re all lonely. There is satisfaction for that craving. I recommended How To Break Your Addiction To A Person and I’ll recommend it again. This is where one will get the most out of their experience with a mad person.

 

With Hindsight 20/20

 

-A

Good Vibrations…

I struggle with feelings of jealousy and feelings of inadequacy, this grieving process is confusing the heck out of me.  I’m angry, sad, anxious, at peace etc. all within a five minute span.

I got off the two dating sites that I was on, and even though it made me feel good talking to various men, I also felt depleted sad and not feeling particularly attractive.

I just lost my mother so it’s to be expected but I just want to be embraced and in love and have help during this difficult time in my life.

I’ve been doing the “work” so to speak and perhaps there’s more to be done.  I don’t even know these days.  I will continue to love myself and spread that love the best way I can until it returns to me.

I’m in a low spot energetically at this time.  Time to raise that vibration.

 With ease, patience and love for thyself.

-Aaisha

2016 kicked my arse…

Right now is time for the petty post. Let’s talk about things to leave in 2016. Matter fact, let’s throw these things away TODAY. The dog ears and the head thingy snapchat filters….hate these shits. The going live on Facebook….and you ain’t saying SHIT….just looking in the camera twirling weave or making duck lips…..trash this 🌽🏀 shit man. 
The giving your “haters” so much attention. Who’s hating? Why do you care? How do your haters motivate you? Shouldn’t the people who love and support you motivate you? FOH with this man lol…quit posting porn, fights, and other violence on social media. 
Quit poking folks on Facebook. Shit is stupid. Makes no sense. Stop making posts about being bored. Boring people get bored. Read a book. Find a new hobby. Stop misspelling words in your posts and misusing your homonyms, homophones, and homographs (grade school English….look it up. ( I’m very guilty of this mainly because Im thinking too hard and miss entire words oh well- let’s all do better) 

The web has a plethora of valuable information besides Rob and Chyna’s relationship). And do research before you say stuff and really have no idea what you’re talking about. We are all guilty of doing the latter. Don’t believe everything you hear. Especially from media outlets. Make an effort to think critically and process information given to you prior to believing it. And make an effort to stay positive as well has embracing that shadow self. Without the darkness there can be no light; vice versa. Do not let this world poison your heart. People have sucked in 2016. Immensely. They will continue to suck until the end of time. Stay true to yourself…unless you’re an asshole. Don’t stay true to that shit. Change. Literally…become a different person. Drink bleach and cleanse yourself. 

Happy Hanukkah, a festive Kwanzaa, Merry Xmas, and Happy New Year. 
That wasn’t really so petty after all….😏

Fitting in…

This is a message for myself. Reflection and speaking solely to myself; this is something I’ve struggled with for a while now.It clicked today. 
Everyone isn’t going to vibe with us 

With what we do

What we think 

What we create 

How we feel… 
No one is obligated to agree with you or even support us 
But the root of the issue

Is why are we expecting this journey, OUR journey, YOUR journey, to be like anyone else’s
What is causing you frustration? 

Why is it that you feel you need approval? 
Those who vibe and resonate with us, are people that reflect where we are or going 
Stop trying to force people to accept you when you’re on completely different wavelengths and THAT’S OKAY
Not a negative thing at all 

We can’t all swim in the same stream 
Breath easy

Be well and with immense gratitude. 

Inside out.

Things will often fall apart 
Like destruction 

Turmoil 

Life flips you upside down on your head and shakes you…. 

All in order to put things back together perfectly 

With a greater outcome 

And closer to the bigger picture 

My last few months I have been turned on my head and shaken, but it’s coming back together now.
I can finally see it happening… 

With gratitude.

-A

The 49th Law

One of the best skills you can develop is discernment about how you feel around certain people. This will impact your energy dramatically.
Allow yourself to chose close friendships with people who you feel good around and let go of the obligatory relationships that drain you.

After the fiasco I just encountered with this last “relationship”  (that’s what he called it) Ha!  I have to learn  that not everything and everyone is going to serve in a capacity of my highest good.  Let it go (me shaking myself)

With laughter, love, discernment and gratitude. 

-A